Adik.

Assalamualaikum!
few weeks ago was super busy. pressure and stress tak tentu hala sbb banyak tests n quizzes. but now, im here in Penang. balik cuti raya. =D

talking bout ADIK. last Tuesday which was on 23rd of August, birthday adik saya. tengok tu birthday adik sama date dengan kakak dia cuma bezanya i was born in September. :') everyone came and asked me curiously 'kd ada adik ke?' 'im sorry kd, i xtau u ade adik' 'adik u sakit ape?' 'adik u umur berapa?' all sorts of questions asking bout my sister. comel diorang yang bertanya tu. thank you for ur concern. memang jarang i open up any story bout her, unless kalu dah memang mulut tu nak bercerita, i will tell. :)

so here it is, Khodijah Shamsul ada adik. cuma Allah lebih sayangkan adik. jarang jugak nak dgr kd mengaku anak bongsu, selalu ckp ank number 2. eheehhe, sbb i know, i have a sister after me, which is the youngest in the family. and ahha, saya seorang kakak. (okay sounds weird kan?) mcm mana la kd nak jd kakak. hehe. tapi tu lah, Allah knows best. He took her to be with Him.

masa kecik dulu, bila duduk dalam kereta dekat belakang with my brother, selalu kata tmpt tgh tgh tu untuk adik. sebab kami dua dah duduk kiri kanan kan, so kira tgh tgh tu reserved space for her. and when both of us gaduh, selalu mak nanti ckp, gaduh la dua org, kalau adik ada mesti dia tak gaduh, then both of us akan stop gaduh. kalau nak raya, mak selalu ckp jugak, kemas rumah cantik cantik, kemas bilik, nanti adik nak datang. (u know, the positive thought of bila orang dah meninggal bila raya roh mereka akan melawat keluarga). we still have her cloth, botol susu. baju tu my mum simpan and everytime she holds it, she will cry and when she cry i will cry too. sedih. seorang ibu mengandungkan anak for 9 months and tak ada rezeki untuk membesarkan zuriat tersebut. tapi mak kuat. semua redha adik pergi. walaupun dia pergi when i was 3 years old, i still remember the situations. from hospital pergi melawat mak, and after few days tengok jasad adik dekat rumah maktok. semua orang dah siap siap nak kebumikan adik. waktu tu tak faham apa, seriously. tp when i grow up, i can feel her presence. rasa mcm ada adik. pernah one time, masa i was in form 2, i told my brother, i said, 'ifwat, aku rasa mcm aku ada adik, and she is alive' (i dont know if he can still remember my statement. hehe) masa mak masih mengandungkan adik, my bro and I la plg kecoh. selalu tunggu mak balik keja and cium/bau perut mak. hehe. comel la fikir balik.

pernah jugak waktu kecik nak tukar botol susu. i want her's. but mum doesnt let me. bila besar baru faham, its hers. :) and bila kira umur dia, kalu masa tu dia amik UPSR, mesti semua nanti kata, 'kalu tak sekarang mesti kita semua busy nk tau adik dapat berapa' 'mesti mak risau dia nak amik exam' and when last year, supposed the time she took her PMR, we said the same thing. we remember her always. mak walid selalu kata, tempat adik di syurga. dia pergi sebelum sempat buat apa apa kat dunia ni. untung adik. ;')

i used to cry always if ada org yg cerita psl their adik. tapi semua yang terjadi ada hikmah. maybe im not going to be a good sister.

so yeah, tula sedikit sebanyak cerita/kenangan bila igtkan adik.

Al-Fatihah.
Siti Nabilah binti Sheikh Samsol Bahari was born on 23rd August 1995 dan pulang ke rahmatullah on 25th August 1995. Passed away due to organ complication. :'(

we love and remember you always dear sister.